/Work.nonwork-related\

Waiting to feel better. It sucks, it’s always something. At least I have no flu my heart is fine I can still run and jump…the mental stuff is the worst, though, worse than being hurt or ill is being out of it.
I’m posting a warning to anyone I know, if you have bad side effects from hormonal birth control like the pill or the shot, the mirena IUD has some amount of the same, and it will fuck you up either getting one or getting rid of one. For reals. I’ve been crazed and pms-like and aggressive and easily upset or angered for about a month now. Despite all the happy fun times I’m depressed, aggravated, upset, having crying jags, harassing my boyfriend like a maniac, and basically a snap case.
I mean usually I have my moments of depression but for the most part I stay on an even keel….ask anyone! I swear!
At any rate I hope things get easier shortly. This is making me like someone I’m not and I don’t like it one bit, I want to be back to myself again and I don’t know how long it’ll be but it seems endless so far. I’m worried that it will fuck up friendships, my relationship, my work…everything. It’s fucking rotten and I hate it but it’s hard to stay in control of it. I’m trying though.
Work is about the only thing that’s helping, as soon as the machine is buzzing I instantly feel myself again, normal and neutral and goofy. Work, and repeat marathons of Miami CSI, and napping on the couch with the dog.
My work people have cheered me up a lot too, thanks Jim and Kimmy and Vanessa…Blizzle has been a lifesaver and talking to rachel and bruki has helped too…
thanks guys for helping me keep the chin up and the hands moving, bear with me, I hope it goes by fast.
(If you’re wondering why I posted something so personal, it’s because I think people should be aware of these things. I know more than a few women who have had really bad emotional side-effects from birth control, ones they weren’t warned about when they were given it. I think that’s fucking wrong and I think that posting something so personal might help someone else who is going through the same thing. If you’re prone to depression or anxiety don’t use hormonal birth control. It can make you have mood swings that can cause damage in your personal life, which really really sucks. They make a non-hormonal IUD and there’s always diaphragms and essure. There are other options so if you tend to get emotional easily choose a different option. Hope this post helps someone.)
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